...beyond the days....

If there is ever a song that gives me a good vibe, it has to be this song from Peterpan. “Di Balik Awan” which means “Beyond Cloud”. I dont really get the song, but whoever understands this song, please do explain it to me. Seems to me, it simply says , Que Sera Sera!

Here is the lyric with the English translation..;-

“….Ku tak selalu berdiri, terkadang hidup memilukan,

(I don’t always stand true, sometime life is hurtful)

Jalan yang ku lalui untuk sekedar bercerita,

(Life I went thru is just a told story)

Pegang tangan ku ini,dan rasakannya ku derita,

(Hold my hand and feel my pain)

Apa yang ku berikan tak pernah jadi kehidupan,

(Whatever I give to the world never turn to life)

Semua yang kuinginkan,menjauhkan dari kehidupan,

(All that I want, are far-fetched from life)

Tempat ku melihat dibalik awan,

(The place I watch is beyond the clouds)

Aku melihat dibalik hujan,

(I see beyond the rain)

Tempat aku terdiam,tempat bertahan,

(My contemplation place, place I withstand)

Aku terdiam dibalik hujan,

(I am frozen behind the rain)

Pegang tanganku ini dan rasakan yang ku derita,

(Hold my hand and feel that I am in agony)

Gengam tanganku ini,gengam perit kehidupan.

(Hold my hand ,hold the harshness of life)

Apa yang ku berikan tak pernah jadi kehidupan,

(Whatever I give to the world never turn to life)

Semua yang ku inginkan menjauh dari kehidupan…”

(All I want are far-fetched from life)

And so my mother and my siblings predicted me that I would marry a simple lad and will live a mere moderate life. In short, I would become just like my eldest sister who got married to a plain joe when she was still in her sophomore year in University. They have 5 kids and hardly make a comfortable life as we speak. For my family, my sister’s miserable life is the precedent for me. I should have learnt so much from my previous relationship which eventually left me all broken and fell to pieces, they say. What would I do should my mother hate my loved one so much?

Match is written in the Heaven and what they were saying nothing more than just mere conjectures.

On the other hand, I’d say that I’d marry a nice lad who would allow me to be whoever I wanted to be and would give me support whenever I need the most. He will be there through thick and thin besides me. I just need to take care and love myself the most. HE just loves me under whatever circumstances and whoever I am, unconditionally. In return, I take care of him and love him back.

Life is never easy, by the way!