One Draw to make up One Loss

I 've just finished my Finals only last week.It was a hectic week and tiresome.Not to say that I was burning my midnight oil but was rather due to Stress problem I always have during my exam period.

The last paper , Administrative Law was on Friday afternoon. so i decided to be absent from CLP class on the evening. What a good Stress relief so far is that the Premier League game, the Arsenal V Liverpool match last night! I was thrilled and excited all weekend for this game. A goal hit by Gerrard was discouraging but, in the gunners I trust, they made it a draw with Cesc superbly goal.It was wonderful and satisfying. In fact, We had a few chances wasted in front of the net. We could have won last night with 52% of ball posessions and a tremendous showmanship from the Gunners.I am just proud and happy now and looking for next Home match againts the Red Devil.

I have to say though, last week final Leg of Grand Prix at Interlagos was a bit of a dissappointment. As I am a big fan of a wonderous lad Hamilton and was rooting for him to win the World Championchip title, the 'little drama' happened in Interlagos was way unexpected. Who could have thought Hamilton's car would broke down.Well, unexepected in the sense that no major collisions or tyre breakdown whatsoever but was rather his gear was turned to default mode in the middle of the race and left him 40 secs behind the World Champion,Kimi Raikonen...Argh...I just hate to see this ...I should have known better, This is F1. With fast speed and great machines, this is what we are expected to encounter and watching them makes it all together thrilling and all exciting! Right, enought of 2007 F1 Championship, next year I am sure will be more exciting to watch.

Di Balik Awan by PeterPan

..and unplugged version ....

...beyond the days....

If there is ever a song that gives me a good vibe, it has to be this song from Peterpan. “Di Balik Awan” which means “Beyond Cloud”. I dont really get the song, but whoever understands this song, please do explain it to me. Seems to me, it simply says , Que Sera Sera!

Here is the lyric with the English translation..;-

“….Ku tak selalu berdiri, terkadang hidup memilukan,

(I don’t always stand true, sometime life is hurtful)

Jalan yang ku lalui untuk sekedar bercerita,

(Life I went thru is just a told story)

Pegang tangan ku ini,dan rasakannya ku derita,

(Hold my hand and feel my pain)

Apa yang ku berikan tak pernah jadi kehidupan,

(Whatever I give to the world never turn to life)

Semua yang kuinginkan,menjauhkan dari kehidupan,

(All that I want, are far-fetched from life)

Tempat ku melihat dibalik awan,

(The place I watch is beyond the clouds)

Aku melihat dibalik hujan,

(I see beyond the rain)

Tempat aku terdiam,tempat bertahan,

(My contemplation place, place I withstand)

Aku terdiam dibalik hujan,

(I am frozen behind the rain)

Pegang tanganku ini dan rasakan yang ku derita,

(Hold my hand and feel that I am in agony)

Gengam tanganku ini,gengam perit kehidupan.

(Hold my hand ,hold the harshness of life)

Apa yang ku berikan tak pernah jadi kehidupan,

(Whatever I give to the world never turn to life)

Semua yang ku inginkan menjauh dari kehidupan…”

(All I want are far-fetched from life)

And so my mother and my siblings predicted me that I would marry a simple lad and will live a mere moderate life. In short, I would become just like my eldest sister who got married to a plain joe when she was still in her sophomore year in University. They have 5 kids and hardly make a comfortable life as we speak. For my family, my sister’s miserable life is the precedent for me. I should have learnt so much from my previous relationship which eventually left me all broken and fell to pieces, they say. What would I do should my mother hate my loved one so much?

Match is written in the Heaven and what they were saying nothing more than just mere conjectures.

On the other hand, I’d say that I’d marry a nice lad who would allow me to be whoever I wanted to be and would give me support whenever I need the most. He will be there through thick and thin besides me. I just need to take care and love myself the most. HE just loves me under whatever circumstances and whoever I am, unconditionally. In return, I take care of him and love him back.

Life is never easy, by the way!

T'has been a while....

It has been awhile since my last update to the blog. I have been pretty busy with 'setting' up and reconstruct my life.Academic-wise and career-wise.Have made some big moves and decisions for the past few months. And right now, I am pretty contented for way things handling and heading.Just need to sail through, so to speak.

The fasting month just have started. I am more than exciting to welcome this year of Ramadhan. More so because I have the chance to actually venture into a Makan-Makan business. To be exact, I am making this new project called " Acar Buah Kak Nik". How is that sound?More than appealing to my customers, I hope. Well, I wanted it so much to make it sound more Kelantanese . Because of My foremother's side has carried the title 'Wan", i thought that would not probably be to profound to identified the cook as a Kelantanese.We have the title 'Wan" from other States like Perak and Terengganu as well. So, there i thought, perhaps the title "Nik" would be more profound to bring out the identity and the culture of Kelantan to itself. Voila! For a start, I have made 100 boxes of "Acar Buah Kak Nik" . Now, I am excited to looking forward for a second batch of production, InsyaAllah.

Some thought on career direction...

InsyaAllah, God willing, I will finish another two papers this November. Of late, my mind was so occupied of what am I going to do with my Bachelor Of Legal Studies. I am not a qualified lawyer as yet. Should i proceed to take Certificate of Legal Practies ( CLP) or straight away hunting for a job with my degree qualification. Certainly, with my Law Degree without CLP , working in a legal firm is as good as having no degree At ALL. A firm will pay only RM500 for what they call as 'attachment' and for FYI , the chambering students the first three month of pupillage will receive RM700.

I was in deep dillemma as what I want to do. Trying to map my career and many funny options and weird choices have come across my mind. I just want to be like the rest of my brothers and sisters. Professionals with small family of their own. Making this baby steps into the career world at this point of time, is a struggle. (Can't remember when life is not a struggle!).

For the past few weeks, I started to send in my resumes to many companies i.e. small and big. I realized with my underachiever result, it is a double struggle. Hardly any companies responsed. Panicked!

Last few days, i called up a law firm that only handling shipping case. It is an international legal firm. The HQ is in Singapore. JTJB associate with One of Malaysian renowned maritime lawyer, Jeremy M Joseph, founded Joseph & Partner. Spontaneusly, I picked up my phone and called the firm asking if they take any attachment student who expecting some considerable amount of allowance. The person only told me to email my resume and will have the partner to look at it. Later the afternoon, the firm called up and asked my to come the next day.

Indeed I was very privilleged to meet Mr Jeremy joseph himself. The reason he takes me as an attachment is only out of courtesy as I am a student of his good friend, my lecturer, Dr Irwin who taught me Law of Carriage and because of my sincere interest to learn and explore this part of legal realm.

The interview was more than meet the eye and just a meeting. It became a profound moment for me. Mr Joseph gives me some thought and advice. For a person high up in the legal business ladder. He is generous. The meeting was more about talking about my future that I tried to find answers for the past couple of weeks. I was touched and almost break into tears when I heard words of encouragement. As I was lamenting about my underachievement, he convinced me that some people are born genuies, some born to be a talented lawyer. He , himself, was not a high flying student ( I dont buy that one 'coz he actually got into graduate school right after his degree ), but now he is what he is today. Degree only set a foundation in ones career. As of today, he adviced that I can make up to the loss. Make up for the time wasted and lack of focus during degree years. Encourage to dig some information on CLP. Take CLP as soon as you can be a qualified lawyer and specialize in my interest i.e Marine and Energy Law. I was so relief to have had the talking with him.

InsyaAllah, this November, CLP it is. I will pave my own way and map my career.

"Katakanlah....Katakanlah..."

"Katakanlah....katakanlah..." Guess who sing this song?!.Last night, Molly , Edos, Farez and Me went to Hazami's showcase at the Planet Hollywood.Sharing a stage with Hazami were, Niki, Emilia AF and Siti Sarah.The collaboration was awesome.As our table facing the back of the stage, so the keyboardist and guitarist were really close only 3- feet away from us.We manage to get some pics of Acis and Shah Slam.

Hazami’s showmanship was good and energetic .His choice of songs included Diari Cinta Kita, written by my former classmate Omar Khan, Hero, Pencinta Wanita,Tekad, Mungkin Bahagia and also his new song he is going to release this coming May to name but a few.

The Sunday Nite Live finished at almost 1 am,By then, we were already tired thinking that I have an 8am Class which most probably I am going to escape and Farez is working the next day.

Last but not least, I have to thank Molly and Edos because had invited Farez and Me over to join them.Again, thanks guys!

No title ..Just lamenting history..

I am still in a state of shock.I was surprised by an unexpected friendster message from a barely known person.She asked me how am doing and the surprised part was, asking me how did i manage to cope with my past.Apparently, me and her has a comman past.We once were fooled by the same man.I was in the relationship with this particular guy ( hereforth : SK) for almost 6 years. She, later involved with SK for a year or so.
It came to me shocking as i was already over him.She told me that she had the relationship with SK prior and after he married with Ms N.Hmm....i cannot still believe that this SK guy have not change a lot.Then, i wonder, what marriage is really mean to him? Is it a joke for him to marry a girl and yet still having an affair with my fellow -same-fate friend (Ms Angel)?Gosh..how disgusting he can be. A real big time looser and joker,he must be! Worst still, He spend the day before solemnization with Ms Angel and continued to seeing her after all the marriage ceremonies had done.He only told her to stop seeing each other only after about 9 months later.
Looking at the situation objectively, Ms Angel is also to be blame because she had allowed herself to involve with SK.But this is a matter of heart.She has only herself to ask why did she fall for this SK.The same question i ask myself until today, why in the world did i love this sh*t.I cant seems to find the answer.Who and when we fall in love were already written in the Book of Fate.Something we just have to learn from the mistakes and experience.
Nevertheless, i have to admit.I learn crazy hell lot of things.I learn to love myself before anything else.I learn to put priorities in my life.I am stronger and more resilience to challenges.More concern and understand the tears and pain people endure.Most importantly is i see life rather differently.Alhamdulillah.

Semalam di KLPac.....

Last night was great.The play "Six Characters Looking For An Author" is a compelling drama that challenges the audience to put the subject of actors and audiences into perspective.

As a beginner, I find that this play is able to introduce me to the basic concept of theater itself bacause it successfully convey the message across that the "character" which the "actor" tries to act can never be fully realized.Somehow, as the audience and the actors, we try to interprete the message according to our very meaning which the definition is given by our ownself world.

Synopsis?? Here is more info about the play at KLPAC.

http://www.klpac.com/Welcome.asp?c=whatsontheatreview&theatreID=110&theatrecatID=5

debut entry..

Alrighty..now I’m feeling like having a blog of mine.so , from now on, I can write whichever stuffs that intrigue me and I would like to share them with u..

I always think about LIFE…my life, my family, looking at one’s life is really intresting. Wonder how God design one’s life that full of ups and downs only for the ultimate reason , that is, to make oneself better as a human being and as His servant.

Those who know me personally and close to me must have known what kind of person i am.I love you guys.To others, I am just a plain jane.The "girl- next- door".

As this is my first entry blogging, aku pun blur nak cerita ape.....let me start with a brief introduction of myself.

People call me Haiza.Still belajar kat UiTM , mengikuti jurusan Undang-Undang.Aku rase, aku la antara orang paling lama blajar di IPTA. So far, aku dah pernah mask 3 IPTA i.e. UM, Sunway College and UiTM.So much time wasted on the prep level e.g Asasi and A Level before i only decided to pursue my education in legal studies.Sekarang, aku dalam semester terakhir kat ITM.Hopefully, by the time aku habis BLS (Bachelor of Legal Studies), aku dapat kerja terus.InsyaAllah.
Ironic, aku rase la, biasenyer semakin kita matang, kita semakin pandai.Tapi aku plak, makin tua makin kurang cerdik.Dulu, mase sekolah aku performed jugak dlm studies aku. Sekarang, my studies average jek.I know, that is because lack of concerntration.Yups.Concerntration aku banyak terganggu dengan masalah2 bercinta yang bodoh.Have to admit, it was my fate to meet and once had engaged with a man i knew when i was doing Asasi , in UM.Untill today, the adverse effect of that relationship still get me.I am trying to patch up bit by bit, though.Alhamdulillah.

Have to mention, my family is great.Alhamdulillah.They support me when time i need them most.To my parents, Ma and Bab, thank you for being so understanding. I still amazed how both of you can have so much patience with me.To my siblings, hmm...thanks for being just ---there!ahhehehhe....
By the way, I am the youngest in the family.AKu ade 2 kakak and 3 abang.Proudly introducing them,they are: Kak Ji, Kak Ja, Yo , Ha and Yee.SEmua dah kawin except for Yee and Me!

hmmm......ok lah last sekali aku nak kene mention jugak sini,ehhehe...my special someone, Mr Farez rahman.My prince Charming, the knight in the shining armour!AKu berkawan ngan and kenal dia mase mula2 masuk uitm.Mase buat Law matriculation.Since then, aku berkawan baik dengan farez bersama2 jugak dengan Ray, Muiz, Batodz, Alex and Shazli.Sampai sekarang, they are all very dear to me.Erks...tapi farez, baru last year, he is only my special.I have to agree to whoever quoted that 'the best relationship is when best friends turn to lovers'.After all the pain and anguish in my previous relationship, i can say that , i am lucky to ever get out from that relationship.I pray for my hapiness of today will remains forever.InsyaAllah.

Phew, dah pukul 3.30 am aku melangak kat depan laptop lagi.Ok lah.sambung next time.Nanti ade cerita2 menarik, aku sure kongsi dekat sini.See u!