I am still in a state of shock.I was surprised by an unexpected friendster message from a barely known person.She asked me how am doing and the surprised part was, asking me how did i manage to cope with my past.Apparently, me and her has a comman past.We once were fooled by the same man.I was in the relationship with this particular guy ( hereforth : SK) for almost 6 years. She, later involved with SK for a year or so.
It came to me shocking as i was already over him.She told me that she had the relationship with SK prior and after he married with Ms N.Hmm....i cannot still believe that this SK guy have not change a lot.Then, i wonder, what marriage is really mean to him? Is it a joke for him to marry a girl and yet still having an affair with my fellow -same-fate friend (Ms Angel)?Gosh..how disgusting he can be. A real big time looser and joker,he must be! Worst still, He spend the day before solemnization with Ms Angel and continued to seeing her after all the marriage ceremonies had done.He only told her to stop seeing each other only after about 9 months later.
Looking at the situation objectively, Ms Angel is also to be blame because she had allowed herself to involve with SK.But this is a matter of heart.She has only herself to ask why did she fall for this SK.The same question i ask myself until today, why in the world did i love this sh*t.I cant seems to find the answer.Who and when we fall in love were already written in the Book of Fate.Something we just have to learn from the mistakes and experience.
Nevertheless, i have to admit.I learn crazy hell lot of things.I learn to love myself before anything else.I learn to put priorities in my life.I am stronger and more resilience to challenges.More concern and understand the tears and pain people endure.Most importantly is i see life rather differently.Alhamdulillah.